1. great destruction or damage.
2. severe and overwhelming shock or grief.
Devastation is from the Stroke of Emotions Series I created in 2017.
In this image, I am crouching alone surrounded by total devastation.
The scene I chose to represent total devastation is an image from the clear cut of a forest, with a stormy sky in the background.
Crows circling high above, as well as closely approaching, signify a personal transformation.
Some people believe crows represent doom. Some people believe crows represent destiny,
or being fearless.
In the immediate days and weeks following my husband's stroke, the one word that kept coming to my mind was devastation.
Severe shock. Overwhelming grief. Our lives had changed. Forever.
Well meaning friends told me that our lives would get back to normal. It would just be a "new normal".
In the future, I would come to appreciate the positive things in our lives. But during that awful time, all I could see was what had been lost.
I was at home, alone. I couldn't confide my fears to the one person I usually talked to because he was in the hospital fighting the battle of his life. I had no one else I wanted to confide in. My dreams for the future, whether they were practical or not, were no longer possible. No hope for traveling. No hope for a getaway place by the ocean. I had been accepted for a university program at art school for the following fall, but would not be able to attend.
It was very selfish of me, but that was reality.
Of course, I was fully supportive of my husband's challenges and I spent my days at the hospital with him.
But during my nights at home, I cried many tears and was in a very dark place.About Stroke of Emotions:
In an effort to deal with my worry and feelings of helplessness after my husband had a major stroke in 2017, I turned to my hobby of photography. I took self portraits and created composited images using my photographic library to help define and illustrate my feelings. From devastation through rejuvenation, it is a story of a healing journey that I hope will help others going through a difficult time.
The complete story of Stroke of Emotions is available in book format. To view and/or purchase online click on this link.